I have a motto right now: I will not be afraid.
Today, it served me well. We started with a trip to the toddler gym near our house. I was not afraid. Will did great! Emma did great! I put her in the Ergo and even nursed her while he played. It was fine.
We went for a walk with a good friend. I was not afraid. Again, I packed the Ergo. Going into two kids, I highly recommend some sort of baby carrier that you feel comfortable with. It makes a world of difference. But it turns out that we didn't need the Ergo. Emma slept like a dream during the walk.
We ended the day with a trip to the local park that has a Splash Pad. I was not afraid. Once again, the Ergo was my friend. But I also went with a friend, her daughter, new baby, and husband. He was key in helping me manage Will while I nursed Emma. When all else fails, call in the reinforcements.
M brought take out Japanese food home which is one of Will's very favorites. They snuggled on the couch and watched a little t.v. afterwards while I nursed Emma and now we are all looking forward to bedtime.
Day two wasn't perfect, but it felt comfortable. I am not getting overconfident. I know that life will throw me some curve balls soon. But so far, I am thankful for what have been good days. I am not afraid (okay, maybe still a little afraid, but trying to get over it).