I feel like I am at a blogging crossroads. I want to keep blogging for selfish reasons. It has been and continues to be an outlet for me and I enjoy having a written record of my infertility/loss/parenting journey. I enjoy it as a means to keep up with all of my blogger friends. I like knowing my story stands out there as a beacon of hope for others. It doesn't happen as often as it used to, but I still get the occasional e-mail or comment from someone who has experienced recurrent pregnancy loss and finds my story inspirational and comforting at a time when they need it.
That being said, I also wonder if this is the right platform for me to keep talking about my life with the kiddos. I have my happy ending but do I need to keep flaunting it in the face of those that don't? And, unless things change dramatically, I will not be having any more children, so this blog has reached the end of any potential for TTC, pregnancy, birth, etc. From here on out, my story will be about parenting and my life as it continues to evolve.
As I see it, there are a few options.
1) Keep blogging here. People can keep following my story or not. I will keep blogging about my life and parenting two children after loss. Those that find my blog can read what information they find useful from it and ignore what they might not want to read and hopefully, the pictures of Will and Emma are not salt in their wounds.
2) Stop blogging here and start a new "mommy blog." This blog can then stand as it is and people who stumble across it can read about my happy ending without having to have their noses rubbed in it. They can get their dose of hope and move along.
3) Update here occasionally and let go of the blog "thing" for the most part. I love blogging, but it does take up a lot of time. Perhaps if I got out of the habit, I wouldn't feel the need to blog so much. I could keep up with my blogger friends and follow the stories of those still actively TTC or adopting, but my story? It's been told.
What do you think? And in any case, what do you want to know about/hear about in my life? Any burning questions that I haven't answered in my three plus years of blogging? I have always been an open book, but there might still be something I haven't blathered on about.