Trigger Happy

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

For those of you that have been following my blog in previous cycles, you already know my dirty little secret. For those of you who are just joining the fun, allow me to be brutally honest. There are people who are POAS-aholics and then there are people that take it to a new and probably unhealthy level. Then there is me. I have been known to go through upwards of five pee sticks a day.

Yeah, I know. I am sick. I wish they had meetings. I need to go.

When we first embarked on this IVF cycle, my husband made me promise that I would not test before the beta. After much discussion, I agreed.

However, my husband has since reversed his decision, especially after he picked up the scent of a possible pregnancy. It was with his blessing that I bought a two-pack of FRER this afternoon. What I found funny about taking this test was that it had a lot of mixed emotions behind it. Usually, I pee with glee, but this time, my hands were shaking as I did the deed.

The one benefit of my obsession and multiple triggered cycles is this: I HAVE NEVER HAD TRIGGER IN MY SYSTEM PAST TWELVE DAYS. Usually, by the tenth day, the lines are those ghosty lines that play tricks with you and come and go with a few BFNs thrown in. I have gotten a few extremely faint lines on 12 DPTrigger, but never have I had a trigger shot in my system on 13 DPTrigger.

This is important because as of 4:45 PM today, 13 DPTrigger: I got two lines. And the second line is NOT faint, it is strong and steady. So dark, in fact, that my husband even said, "Wow. That's a good one.

Reasons why I am beginning to have real hope that this worked:

1) I smell.
2) Faint AF-like cramps off and on all day.
3) BFP at 13 DPTrigger and 5 dp 5 dt (two blasts)

Of course, it could still be trigger. But that second line is awfully dark. And my hopes are getting awfully high.