Sunday, December 30, 2007

I Gotta New Attitude!

Yep, that's right.

Sing, it girls, because. . . I Gotta New Attitude!

This won't last long, I am sure, but I am determined to make it last until my ultrasound on Tuesday, January 8. Here's the deal: pregnancy is a miracle. It is something that many people take for granted, but all of us that have dealt with infertility and/or pregnancy loss never will. I have worked hard and gone through a lot to be here. At times, I have sacrificed my health, my time, my comfort, my sanity, my marriage, my friendships, and pretty much my entire existence to make this happen.

And I am not enjoying it. Well, I wasn't, anyway. I kept glooming and dooming and googling my way through it.

But no more. I cannot change what will happen. God has already determined the fate of this pregnancy. I hope that this time is the miracle that we have been praying for, but if it's not, then I want to - scratch that - I DESERVE TO enjoy every single minute of it. I don't want regrets.

I am sure that I will falter in this new attitude, but I am going to give it my best try. I know I can count on you to help me!

18 comments:

Sunny said...

I love your new attitude. Keep it up!!!

chicklet said...

I'm not really the rainbows and butterflies type, but I think after enough of this crap, you find ways to find happiness amongst all the crap, so yay for you that you found it too:-) We can do this - some days, we can actually find the good in this.

Yeesh, how the hell that's coming out of MY mouth... shocking.

Kathy said...

You go Katie! :) I LOVE your positive attitude! I know it is isn't easy, especially after everything you have gone through to get to this moment in your life... But way to embrace it! One day at a time and today YOU ARE PREGNANT!!! :)

infertility just sucks said...

So glad to see that you've turned a corner. You're always telling everyone else to treasure every single moment and I'm so happy to see you doing the same.

Live it up, rub your belly and love it.

alison said...

Yeah! I like the positive attitude, it suits you! Keep it up, the 8th is right around the corner. :)

Polka Dot said...

Yay! I'm so glad to hear this! I wanted so desperately to say to try and enjoy it anyway, but I know how those words can sometimes grate more than help.

So I'm super glad to see you're going to do your best to enjoy it. And that you know you DO deserve it!

Julie said...

Great attitude Katie! I'll send lots of positive vibes your way!

Congrats!!

Julie

Tracy said...

I'll help!!! I'll help!!! I'll be your Jiminy Cricket!

Love ya girl...

Yodasmistress said...

"It is what it is" and "What will be, will be" I hope what is is good and I hope what will be is a baby. Hugs darlin!

Searching said...

Awesome attitude. :) I'm here for whatever you may need. Today I'll say way to go! Great perspective on things! Sing to the world- you're pregnant!!

Samantha said...

It is so hard to really enjoy your pregnancy, given the losses you've experienced. Keep up the positive thinking!

elephantscanremember said...

We're here for you. I am glad you are feeling so good! You DO deserve it.

lifefromhere said...

you go girl! and yes, you absolutely DO deserve every minute of joy. wonderful wonderful. love it. ~luna

Fertilize Me said...

HERE HERE!! Katie I am here cheering you along ( and motivating myself to sing that song as a reminder to myself)

My Reality said...

It is a great attitude to have!

Kim said...

You inspired me to have the same attitude. I was so hesitant to share the news with others, but then I realized that whatever will be will be, irregardless of how I handle it. So, for as long as it lasts, I'm trying to be happy and grateful and shout from the rooftops. It's hard to not be hesitant, but I really can't change fate... so all that I can do is enjoy it while I have it and pray that it sticks around.

Debby said...

January 8th is going to be an amazing day for you! Hang in there....only 1 more week!

Melissa said...

This is so true and I couldn't have said it better myself-you do your very best to stay positive and think like this. Hate that these things are out of our hands, but that's just the way it is. I am praying for the VERY BEST for you!