Yesterday, my husband called me from work to see how I was feeling. He asked about Day 3 vs. Day 5 embryos and I told him what I knew. He was quiet for a minute and then said, "If it's better for them to go to Friday, then I hope that's what happens. But if it doesn't matter, then I think it would be really cool if it happened tomorrow."
And I knew why he was saying that. I was just a little surprised that it said it to me, that he even thought about it. Of course, today is December 12, which has always been a bit of a momentous day for my husband. Today is his deceased father's birthday. December 12 always makes him a little sad.
Last year, December 12 gave us another reason to be sad. It was the day that I had my D&C with Gummy Bear. It was just the most awful day, for too many reasons.
So, I agree with him. I haven't heard from Dr. M's office yet, but we should know soon. I am really, truly going to be okay with it if we are doing transfer today. Because I think it is a really good sign that such a sad day could have something really wonderful happen on it. I am a big believer that there are no coincidences in life and there is a reason for everything.
To my sweet angel, Gummy Bear: Mommy and Daddy miss you so much. There is an empty spot in my heart and in my arms that only you can fill. No matter how many babies I might have, you will always hold that special place within me.