Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Another Anniversary

Yesterday, my husband called me from work to see how I was feeling. He asked about Day 3 vs. Day 5 embryos and I told him what I knew. He was quiet for a minute and then said, "If it's better for them to go to Friday, then I hope that's what happens. But if it doesn't matter, then I think it would be really cool if it happened tomorrow."

And I knew why he was saying that. I was just a little surprised that it said it to me, that he even thought about it. Of course, today is December 12, which has always been a bit of a momentous day for my husband. Today is his deceased father's birthday. December 12 always makes him a little sad.

Last year, December 12 gave us another reason to be sad. It was the day that I had my D&C with Gummy Bear. It was just the most awful day, for too many reasons.

So, I agree with him. I haven't heard from Dr. M's office yet, but we should know soon. I am really, truly going to be okay with it if we are doing transfer today. Because I think it is a really good sign that such a sad day could have something really wonderful happen on it. I am a big believer that there are no coincidences in life and there is a reason for everything.

To my sweet angel, Gummy Bear: Mommy and Daddy miss you so much. There is an empty spot in my heart and in my arms that only you can fill. No matter how many babies I might have, you will always hold that special place within me.

7 comments:

Yoka said...

I hold my thumbs crossed that whatever happens today or on Friday, happens because it is supposed to. Hope your embryos grow happy and healthy.

Samantha said...

This is a sad day for you, I'm sorry. I hope that good will result from it, if today is the day of your embryo transfer.

alison said...

Awww, ((huuugs)) to you both today. If it would be for the best, I'm hoping for a transfer today. Thinking of you! (and waiting for an update!! :o)

Fertilize Me said...

I am sorry that sad days like this exist for you and hubby. Holding on til you get hte call - sending you my best thoughts for the transfer and your family

Searching said...

Thinking of you, your hubby, Gummy and the little embryos growing away.

K @ ourboxofrain said...

I'm so sorry that today is a date that holds such difficult memories. I hope this year will be the year that changes that and makes 12/12 a date to commemorate with joy to accompany the sorrow. I'll be thinking of you today.

BrownEyedGirl said...

Big hugs Katie!! Big ones! I'm sorry that this day holds such sad memories for you!