Tuesday, January 8, 2008

So Tiny. . . So Loved

Sorry for the delay in posting. It's a long story, which I won't bore you with, since you are here for the ultrasound results!

First, the wonderful news:

One beautiful sack and fetal pole, CRL measuring exactly on track for dates, at 6 weeks, 2 days.

One beautiful heartbeat, flashing away so strongly that I saw it the minute that she focused the probe on it. 119 bpm, the little overachiever! It was a beautiful sight!

The okay news:

My left ovary has two large cysts and a lot of retained blood. This is okay because it explains the pains that I have been having and it is completely normal. It is just okay because it kind of hurts and there is nothing that can be done, it should resolve by 10 weeks or so.

The bad news:

Well. There is no bad news. This will sound funny, coming from someone who didn't want multiples in the beginning of this, but I guess you could say that I am. . . disappointed? No, not disappointed. That's not the right word. We are both thrilled with one healthy looking baby. The ultrasound technician said that everything is "perfect" with the pregnancy to date.

Dr. M came in, all congratulations and smiles, and yet. . . I still feel a bit of a pang for the second one that didn't make it, a bit of a failure as a good home to embryos. It makes me wonder what went wrong and fear for the remaining one. The receptionist even seemed surprised when we came back out. She said, "Really, just one? With those beta numbers?" Then, I think she felt kind of bad and backtracked, "Well, one is all you need, right?"

Yes, one is all we need. And just thinking about that beautiful, perfect heartbeat makes me melt. I just pray it keeps beating and beating and beating.

PS I couldn't close without one more heartfelt thank you for your love and support. I know that each of you has a lot going on in your own lives and it means the world to me that you take time out of your day to check up on us. I don't know what I would do without you.

39 comments:

Laksh said...

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!

Awesome news. Go baby go :)

hugs!

Polka Dot said...

That's wonderful news!! I kept checking and checking, counting the hours (I'm in est hah) between us.

I can't wait for the next ultrasound!

Adriane said...

Fantastic! My husband and I both just cheered out loud for you! Congratulations - what wonderful, wonderful news!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations!! I've been checking and got butterflies when I saw you posted. I am so happy for you and will pray that you have a healthy and happy 9 months!

Gibson Twins said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! What a wonderful way to close out the day!

Julie said...

Katie,

That's wonderful news! I am so happy everything is going so well during this pregnancy!

I'll continue to send lots of positive thoughts throughout the rest of your 34 weeks of pregnancy!

Congrats!
Julie

infertility just sucks said...

I have been refreshing like a crazy lady this evening!

I am so thrilled to hear this!!! Oh Katie - this is just so, so, so wonderful.

alison said...

Awww! I'm just so freaking excited for you. I'm all teary eyed for your beautiful heartbeat. :)

Hugs to you!

Fertilize Me said...

love hearing hte heartbeat and the words "perfect" to describe progress!!

So sorry about the cysts. Did they give you any indication on what will/should/can happen? Or how to make the pain go away?

My Reality said...

This is wonderful news!!

Maria said...

AWESOME!!!!

I kept refreshing your page all afternoon long!! It was driving me batty!!

I'm so glad that everything looks great. This is such an amazing time.I think I can kind of understand how you feel about not having two in there, I've actually already started thinking about that. But, I'm totally jumping the gun!

BrownEyedGirl said...

Congratulations! Grow baby grow!! :D

Baby Steps to Baby Shoes said...

Yes!!!!! I am so very glad for you. I hope you can enjoy each minute of this little one.

Debby said...

I am so happy for your wonderful news! Was traveling today, and couldn't wait to get to a computer to check in and see how your u/s went. I look forward to seeing some ultrasound pics in the coming weeks.

Mrs. Piggy said...

would have banked on twins...and i know exactly how you feel. last pregnancy i was hoping for two and felt disappointed when we saw 1...

Ally said...

Hooray! :) Oh, Katie, I have tears in my eyes right now. Congratulations, my dear. I am so thrilled for you and I can't wait to hear about your pregnancy journey!

Pamala said...

Great news! I had a cyst as well, and it hurt, but oddly enough once I found out about it, it didn't hurt nearly as much, lol! I guess when they tell you there's nothing to worry about then you don't notice anymore. They did tell me though to go to the bathroom more because apparently my bladder would push on it.
Anyhow here's to a wonderful upcoming pregnancy! Hope you have an uneventful and fun one!

K @ ourboxofrain said...

Yay!!!!!!! What amazing news!! I am so incredibly happy for you!

lifefromhere said...

wonderful news Katie! so glad you got to see the heartbeat so early. hope the cysts clear up soon. ~luna

Missy said...

Congratulations on the good doctor visit! Very exciting stuff. :)

Chris said...

Awwww, good for you! Congratulations! I'm so very, very, very happy for you. Enjoy this very special time.

Kim said...

WOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

I think it's just one TOUGH, STRONG, RESILIENT *one*. :O)

You know that I had the hemorrhagic cysts also... no fun, but mine have mostly gone down. I hope yours do also, and soon!

I couldn't be more excited for you!

Jen said...

This was exactly the good news I was hoping to see! A huge congrats!

Joshua said...

So tendered, so loving! You've got a magnificent blog here, Katie! PALAVROSSAVRVS REX!

Samantha said...

I'm so happy for you! May the rest of your scans be as uneventful!

Kathy V said...

That is awesome. I am glad to hear that you have one in there. Congratulations!

In Search of Morning Sickness said...

I wanted to say Hooray for the good news!!! One beautiful heartbeat!

Your feelings of disappointment and wondering what happened to the other embryo are normal! Even if you didn't specifically "want" twins, with all the efoort put into this, you have realized that those embryos were human beings and both your children... It just makes sense to be a little sad one didn't make it. My betas started out lower so I never truly suspected twins, but I always held out hope. I wanted both babies to live. That's why we didn't put 3 back - there was no way I could honestly WANT triplets. And if I couldnt' hope for every embryos survival, I wasn't going to put it back.
Great news!

Tracy said...

Sorry it took me so long to comment! WHOO HOO!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna say it - "I TOLD YOU SO!"

Laura said...

Oh Katie! I am so happy for you and your husband! Yay for your awesome news!

Waiting Amy said...

That is WONDERFUL!!

I totally can understand your feelings about the other embryo. IVF is a unique experience, and you are often surprised by how you feel about things.

While I totally did NOT expect twins, I am happy. But it brings a whole new set of concerns.

Enjoy this beautiful moment! And thanks to YOU for being a supportive member of this community!

Melissa said...

Awww... I am so HAPPY reading this! You have no idea. What stellar news-I love it when prayers are answered in the way we hope for. Congratulations on everything, you are continually in my prayers and I hope for continued good reports!
*hugs*

moosk said...

yay!! that's just wonderful, katie! you deserve every ounce of good news... i'll continue hoping and praying for your little overachiever!

Yoka said...

Congratulations. What great news!!! I am so excited for you!!!

Gumby said...

CONGRATS!
I hope your pain goes away soon. You should be able to just relish your time right now and not have to deal with that yuckiness! :)

Courtney said...

What a great update! Congratulations on seeing that glorious flickering of a heartbeat. :)

M from Baby Dreams said...

Katie - I am so happy for you! You couldn't have hoped for a better first ultrasound than "right on target" - and what an impressive heartrate for only 6 weeks, 2 days. Very good signs, indeed. I'll pray for continued good news and a healthy baby (dare to dream) at the end of August (if my calculations are correct).

Kristen said...

YAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!!

That flicker is just the most beautiful sight, isn't it? So very happy for you! XOXO

Searching said...

I am SO happy for you! Those were the words I was dying to hear. What a wonderful day! I was on pins and needles till I could finally get my internet connection back. Sheesh, didn't it know something important was going on?

Congrats!!!

JJ said...

Oh what FANTASTIC news=) Congrats!