Monday, January 7, 2008

One More Sleep. . .

Several of you wonderful commentors have put time in terms of "one more sleep." I like that. Sleeping is one of my favorite pasttimes as of late (and actually, I am always up for a good nap), and it seems to be when time passes the fastest.

So, just one more sleep before we know more about the tentative future of this pregnancy. I would be lying if I said that my evil thoughts from yesterday were all gone, because they are not. And I imagine that they won't be for quite some time. If they ever do go away, I am sure that new ones will quickly replace them. However, I did have some quiet reflection time last night, asking God to give me peace. Barely fifteen minutes later, I had a pretty bad nausea moment. I haven't had once since, but I took that little episode as a sign from the Big Guy. Even if it was just a coincidence, I am more peaceful today.

My ultrasound isn't until 2:00 PM tomorrow and I am on the West Coast. Also, remember that we have to battle traffic for more than an hour north afterward. But I will do my best to post the results as soon as I can.

One more thing. No matter how this ends up, I am so grateful. Really. I will be devastated if there is bad new tomorrow, don't get me wrong. But I will still be so grateful. I am glad for the experience of being able to carry life, for no matter how short the time. I am happy that I get to have my little ones with me, even if I can't have them for the lifetime that I am praying for. I am so thankful for the support of family and friends, both in real life and here in blogland. I am on more prayer lists and support chains than I even feel that I deserve.

So thank you. No matter what.

14 comments:

Adriane said...

One more sleep!!! I am so, so excited for you. I am hoping and praying your appt goes well tomorrow.

Tracy said...

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow, for sure.

One more sleep...is it too early to go to bed?

Kim said...

Oh, I'm tearing up over here! I'll be thinking big thoughts for you!

Waiting Amy said...

Such nice thoughts. One more sleep and then hopefully a lovely celebration. I'm thinking of you.

Kathy V said...

I am waiting patiently for news good or sad but I am hoping for the good. I'll say an extra prayer for you in the afternoon.

Maria said...

You can do it, your almost there, just one more sleep. Even though you've been having dark thoughts (which is totally understandable) the end of your post was pretty positive. I'll be praying for you tomorrow.

infertility just sucks said...

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow afternoon at 4p my time!

And, just to be clear, I will be thinking nothing but the most fabulous, happy, rainbow thoughts.

So, just think about a rainbow before you walk into that room and know that you've got support and love from afar.

Laura said...

Sending positive thoughts your way! Good luck tomorrow - I can't wait to get an update.

One more sleep!!

Melissa said...

You and that baby(ies) and in my prayers today and tomorrow, I am hoping for the VERY best for you. Keep that positive attitude turning, no matter what happens God has a plan for you and no amount of fear, anxiety or worry is going to change it-it only makes you feel like crap! I am going to be desparately waiting to read your update!
*hugs*

JJ said...

Thinking VERY positive thoughts for you!

Yoka said...

I keep my thumbs crossed for you for tomorrow and will include you in my prayers, too!!!

BrownEyedGirl said...

Good luck tomorrow. You are in my thoughts and I hope for wonderful positive news for you and your DH!

thinking of you!!

Brianna said...

I'll be praying for you tonight! And then tomorrow again at 2:00. I'm on the west coast too. In so cali, how about you?

lifefromhere said...

katie, thinking of you today and looking fwd to hearing your excellent news! ~luna