Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Hi Ho, Hi Ho! It's Back To Work I Go!

I should have known that it was too good to last. I was fortunate enough to be able to use a combination of sick days, vacation days, and company paid holidays to get two and a half weeks off of work. This was a benefit that most people don't have and I am grateful for the time off.

But it is really hard to come back to work.

I am in sales and it is a stressful job. I was promoted to a new position last February, but really started in the field in June after a long training period. I love my job itself. I adore the company that I work for, I am proud of the products that I represent, and I love interacting with our customers. Like any job, however, it has it's downsides.

One of which is that my boss comes to work with me about once a quarter. Now, I actually like my boss, and the worksessions aren't that bad once she gets in the car with me and we get going. But the days before are murderous. I am obsessive about getting two "perfect" days set up and really knock myself ou getting ready for her arrival. Because I am still so new to the position, I am also still in the "proving myself" phase. Since she does work with me so infrequently, I feel extra pressure to perform well, as that will be the impression that she has of me for the next couple of months before she works with me again. She is working with me next week.

The other stressful thing is traveling. Now, I am pretty lucky and don't have to do too much of it. However, we have a couple of big meetings coming up. These meetings are rather strange for anyone who has never been to a salesy-type meeting. We have to practice using our selling skills and materials in "role plays," which means you have to stand up in front of your entire region and pretend to sell to a pretend customer - with your peers, boss, and regional manager looking on.

And then there is one other issue . . . and this is my fault. There is a lot of paperwork. I used to be good with keeping up with it. But there is a LOT more paperwork with this new position and I have been spending a lot of time getting to know my new customers. And, if I am completely honest, I have also been focused on getting and staying pregnant, which has taken some of the time that I used to devote to keeping up with the mountains of paperwork. So, I feel as if I am constantly playing catch up with the administrative side of my job. Just thinking about all that I have to do is making my pulse raise. I can practically feel my blood pressure rising. . .

On top of that, a bit of the queasies are setting in. I am mid-week five, so that makes sense. It's completely manageable so far, but it's still there, like a lump in my throat.

But I had a nice break. Time to get back to work!

12 comments:

Tracy said...

It seems overwhelming at first, expecially when you look at it all at the same time, but I'm sure you'll break it down and get it all done when you need to. Hang in there! Scan is next week, right?

alison said...

I'm back today too, and really, really unproductive. Lots of luck with the big meeting and days with your boss coming up! Yay for mid-week 5! Hopefully the quesies will stay away long enough for you to get a little work done. :)

Maria said...

Ugh, it's never fun your first day back. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you when your boss is in town. I hope you're able to get through some of that paperwork.

PS- YAY for mid-week 5 and YAY for queasiness(even though it's not fun, it's a good sign)!

Melissa said...

I am, too, back at work after much needed time off. I wish those days could last forever!
BUT, you have progession in pregnancy to look forward to and I bet your next few weeks will fly by.
Sending you all the happiest thoughts in the world!

infertility just sucks said...

I love your ticker - very happy looking.

As for the work whenever I start to feel my throat closing because of all the work I have to do I just remember that I am one person and nobody expects me to do more than one person is physically able to do. There is no shame in saying "I have not had time to get to that yet."

It sounds like your job is a lot less forgiving on that metric, but hopefully you can take it one piece of paper at a time and just plow through it.

You know, checking my reader every five minutes when I was on break was a lot more fun than being at work today.

Boo on work.

Debby said...

I'm back to work tomorrow and NOT looking forward to it either.

Hooray for the queasies! I hope that this pregnancy brings you the perfect amount of stomach discomfort. Enough to know things are working right...but not enough to knock you off your feet.

R said...

hi there - so glad you came by. I am thinking good thoughts for you and the upcoming scan - and I too have been off for 6 weeks and head back tomorrow (adoption maternity leave is shorter, damn it)...darn!

Road Blocks and Roller Coasters said...

Bleh. I go back tomorrow and I'm absolutely dreading it. Why can't work be occasional and vacation be permanent?

YAY for queasiness! :)

My Reality said...

I always hate going back to work after a long time off. Oh well, it has to be done. You obviously don't sell for my company - our salesforce is quite disgruntled.

jennifercarol said...

I know what you mean about being pre-occupied with getting pregnant. I used to be the star employee. Now I feel like I'm just scraping by because I spend all of my time thinking about pregnancy, babies & the like. Ugh.

But yay for queasiness. That's sure an odd thing to say to somebody though!

Yoka said...

I hate going back to work after a vacation. It always makes me realize how much I miss my previous jobs and how boring my current job is. But since we will be moving in a couple of months there is no point for me to change my job at this point.

Good luck with the visit of your boss!

Searching said...

Eek- sounds stressful! I know you will do well and will get back in the swing of things soon. You're just good like that. :)

I'll keep you in my prayers that the transition back to work with all these big things looming and the stacks of paperwork will go well.

Yay for being in month 2!