Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Imagining

Sometimes, I really miss the babies that we never held in our arms.

I wonder what they'd be like, what personalities they would have. I wonder how they would be like their brother and how they'd be different.

I am so grateful for my son (and now, my daughter, too). I know we were meant to have him, just as he is. There is not a day that goes by that I do not thank God for all that we have been blessed with and for what we are being blessed with in the future.

But sometimes, I do think about the others. And wish we could have had them, too.

14 comments:

HereWeGoAJen said...

Ah, yes, me too.

Nonnie said...

I do the very same thing sometimes. I wonder if my oldest's twin would have looked much like her...would it have been a boy or a girl...would he/she have been as sweet and cool as his/her sister? I wonder about my second lost baby and think the same things...would he/she have looked like LG and E or would he/she have looked like A? Would he/she have had brown eyes like LG or blue eyes like A and E? It doesn't really make me sad at this point, but it does make me so very curious.

Anonymous said...

me, too.

Fishsticks and Fireflies said...

It is all so bittersweet. I am so very blessed with what I have, but it doesn't keep me from wondering what might have been.

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Stacey said...

Oh, I agree, Katie. I wonder that all the time. My heart is divided into 6 (now 7) tiny pieces.

(((HUGS)))

Danifred said...

Sadly, I too will be remembering and imagining.

Sunny said...

((((hugs))))

Ellemes said...

Hugs

peesticksandstones said...

Yep, I do this too. But then I think about how if those babies had made it, I wouldn't have this exact awesome son I have now -- who maybe we were really meant to have after all? So it's weird to think about (and it makes me pretty teary!).

Now that we have a living, breathing son, I find myself thinking a LOT about the frozen embryos we've got, too. The ones from the batch that made our son, plus the batch before that one. It also makes me feel very bittersweet and strange to imagine the possibilities, good and bad.

manapan said...

I was just thinking the same thing today. It would have been nice to be planning a first birthday party soon and to be pregnant again. I just hope everything has gone the way it has for a reason.

((Hugs))

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Amanda said...

I know what you mean.

Michele said...

Peter and I were discussing the same thing this morning...