Stuff

I just wanted to post a thank you to all of those that sent e-mails or left comments on my whereabouts. I am sorry that I worried people. My parents were in town over the weekend, work has been crazy, and honestly, I haven't had a lot of interesting things to write about.

I think the baby is doing okay, but as it has now been almost three weeks since our last listen to the heartbeat, I can't be sure. I think that is why I am so excited to feel the baby move, although then I am sure that I will freak out when it doesn't. I am never happy!

I am in full-on maternity clothes now. Not the big panel pants, but the bigger maternity shirts. It just feels so good having clothes that fit and some of them take any question out of whether I am pregnant or not. It's fun having complete strangers asking when I am due. Of course, they all comment on how big I am for only being four months along. I take those comments in stride, but I have to wonder, just who in the world thinks it's okay to comment on a woman's size, pregnant or not? Still, I have been waiting a long time for this, so I am happy to be showing early and getting seats offered to me in public places and doors opened for me!

I really don't know how much weight I have gained, because I honestly don't know what weight I started at. If you go off of my pre-IVF gain (November), then it's almost TEN pounds. Yikes! If you go off of what I weighed at my first OB appointment (January), then it's only five. Since that sounds a lot better, I think I will go off of that weight. I was not overweight or underweight before, so I should be staying in the 25 - 35 pound range. I was hoping not to break 30, but I feel as if I am eating pretty healthy, and they say a lot of it is just your body's natural response to pregnancy. I am eating more lately, but a lot of fruit and veggies and low-fat dairy, although I do confess to a bowl of ice cream every now and then. I have an OB appointment in two weeks, so we'll see what they say at weigh in. I can't believe that I am even worried about it, but it's really not in a vain way. I just don't want to gain too much weight and put the baby or my own health at risk.

I am still fearful of this pregnancy ending badly. I am still a frantic "spot checker." But despite my fears, it seems as if it is all going as it should. So, I am just trying to relax and believe.