First off, I just want to say that my thoughts and prayers are with those that are currently in the path of Hurricane Gustav. Here is the northwest, we don't have hurricanes, so I cannot imagine how dreadful it would be to face leaving your home and never knowing when and what you might return to.
Life with a newborn is hard. I knew it would be and I don't think that I had rose colored glasses. I knew that there would be sleepless nights, piles of laundry, diapers galore, etc. I expected all of those things and Will hasn't disappointed. He goes through laundry and diapers like it's his job. Oh, wait. It is!
See, I don't mind those things at all. I don't mind all of the things that I do for him. I promise that I don't even mind getting up with him at night. He is so precious and I know how fleeting this newborn stage is. I don't mind milking every second that I have with him. He still can (and often does) reduce me to tears just by looking my direction with his deep blue eyes. When my parents were here, they kindly offered to take a night shift, and I just never really felt it necessary. I like being with him, even when I am so tired that I fall asleep standing up.
What is getting to me is the fact that every little thing I do will impact him for the rest of his life. I feel a tremendous amout of pressure to "start things off right" as far as his sleeping patterns. During the day, he hates to be put down for a nap. I have tried putting him down half-awake, full asleep, and everything in between. Sometimes, he will settle for a bit (five to fifteen minutes) but then the crying starts. He really likes to be held while he naps. But then I wonder, "Am I spoiling him? Will he ever sleep? How will I ever get anything done? Can I take a shower today?" The pediatrician has said that you can't spoil a newborn, and I am taking her at her word for now. But I still do wonder.
Nighttime doesn't seem to be as bad. He has a brief fussy period between 9 - 11 (ish) and then a last feed before bedtime. He seems to settle down for bed all right and last night, only woke up once last night, at 3AM for a feed, then again at 7:30, ready for breakfast. Not too shabby, I feel like a new woman after that many hours of sleep. But don't ask me to repeat that magic show tonight or tomorrow or the next.
I read in all of my parenting books about "starting as you intend to go on" and getting Baby on a schedule from Day One. We don't really have that right now, and it makes me nervous. Am I setting myself and Will up for a lifetime of bad sleep patterns?
Assvice, advice, and anything else gladly accepted.