Wednesday, December 3, 2008

What's Keeping Me Up At Night

And no, it's not Will.

In fact, Little Man has become quite the sleeper. We had a full 7 - 7 night on Sunday and 8 - 7 last night. Before that, it had consistently been 9 - 7 for over two weeks.

So, why am I not sleeping now that Will is?

You see, M and I are in the middle of trying to make a life-altering decision. I am staring at a fork in the road and I am not sure which path to take. Each path has its ups and downs, its twists and turns. I know that no matter which way I choose to go, I will look back with a serious case of "what ifs."

We've listed the pros and cons. We've discussed fully the merits of each.

And we've made a decision. Kind of, anyway. It's not final yet and won't be for a couple of months more. Which means that I have plenty of time to second-guess what we've decided and wrestle with the consequences in the dark.

I wish I could say more, but this is a public forum and I can't just yet. Which probably means that it's not fair to blog about it here.

But I've always turned to my blog in times of turmoil. So, here I am.

11 comments:

Laura said...

I hope you are able to get some sleep soon! Good luck with your decision!

alison said...

Wishing you peace, especially this month. Lord knows it causes enough hustle and bustle and late nights on its own. *hugs*

Elle Charlie said...

Whatever it is, I hope that your decision is one that eventually is the best thing for you and brings you peace. I'm sorry you're losing sleep - I hope it returns, along with much piece of mind. {Hugs}

Mel said...

One could speculate on your life altering decision and I find my own life filled with the same lately.
Prayers for you guys and wishes that you find peace and a solution through it all.
*hugs*

Allison said...

you have my curiosity peaked but I get needing to keep things to yourself. I hope you can get some sleep and resolution to the decision.

Jen said...

Whatever it is, I'm sending my best and hoping you can rest easier.

WISHING...HOPING...and PRAYING said...

while i am certainly not envying your trouble sleeping and your upcoming decision....i am jealous as heck over how well will is sleeping. carson-not so much! i am thrilled when he does a 5 hour stretch. ONCE, he did a 7 hr stretch. you are quite lucky in that department!

Christy said...

Isn't it wonderful when the baby starts to sleep longer? And isn't it weird to wake up in the morning and realize that YOU have slept the whole night?

I'm wishing you peace in your upcoming decision, and if you want to email and unload, that's OK too. I'm good at keeping secrets.

Fertilized said...

GOor Luck wuth your decisions. If it is what I think, It's probably the one thing that I have second guessed about for over 2 months now until I have ultimately just drove myself crazy over and have yet to blog much about it honestly .... You know i am praying for you

Tracy said...

First of all, I AM SO JEALOUS. But aside from that, doesn't insomnia suck? I hope you find peace with your decision soon...

Kathy said...

Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way as you and your husband descern. It is never easy to make such life altering/direction changing decisions and I wish you the best as you figure out what makes the most sense for you and your family.

Hang in there and I am sure you and your husband will make a good decision no matter what you choose. Take care and God bless.((((HUGS)))