Well. . .

I am not trying to be a tease with the title. That is truly the best word to describe our ultrasound today.

Okay, so first things first. We have a heartbeat. 120 BPM.

That's good.

But the not so great news is that the baby is measuring behind. Anywhere from 6 weeks, 1 day to 6 weeks, 4 days. I am 7 weeks, 2 days if my dates are correct. But what makes me think that my dates are correct is that the sac measured at 7 weeks, 2 days. Plus, I know when I ovulated, I know when we did the deed, so we are 7 weeks, 2 days according to that.

That heartbeat is fine for the size of the baby, but a little slower than we'd like to see in a 7 week, 2 day baby. But again, it's perfectly respectable for a six weeker. The ultrasound tech and radiologist cleared us to leave with a big thumbs up.

Dr. S's office called about an hour later and asked me to call them in the morning so we can review the ultrasound results. The nurse said "not to worry," but they would like to schedule us for a follow up ultrasound in two weeks just to make sure everything still looks okay.

Well. . .

The bright side? There is a heartbeat. It's in the very low normal range, but still normal. On the best measurements from today, we are only five days off in growth. That's within the range of normal, especially with an early ultrasound.

The not so bright side? I felt a vague sense of deja vu with my pregnancy with Gummy Bear. Measuring behind, heartbeat "okay," but not what we were hoping for/expecting.

M has decided to look on the bright side. I am trying to do the same, but to be completely honest, I am feeling a little scared and sad. I don't really want to play this game again, but I guess it's what us subfertiles must do.

Well . . .