Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Well. . .

I am not trying to be a tease with the title. That is truly the best word to describe our ultrasound today.

Okay, so first things first. We have a heartbeat. 120 BPM.

That's good.

But the not so great news is that the baby is measuring behind. Anywhere from 6 weeks, 1 day to 6 weeks, 4 days. I am 7 weeks, 2 days if my dates are correct. But what makes me think that my dates are correct is that the sac measured at 7 weeks, 2 days. Plus, I know when I ovulated, I know when we did the deed, so we are 7 weeks, 2 days according to that.

That heartbeat is fine for the size of the baby, but a little slower than we'd like to see in a 7 week, 2 day baby. But again, it's perfectly respectable for a six weeker. The ultrasound tech and radiologist cleared us to leave with a big thumbs up.

Dr. S's office called about an hour later and asked me to call them in the morning so we can review the ultrasound results. The nurse said "not to worry," but they would like to schedule us for a follow up ultrasound in two weeks just to make sure everything still looks okay.

Well. . .

The bright side? There is a heartbeat. It's in the very low normal range, but still normal. On the best measurements from today, we are only five days off in growth. That's within the range of normal, especially with an early ultrasound.

The not so bright side? I felt a vague sense of deja vu with my pregnancy with Gummy Bear. Measuring behind, heartbeat "okay," but not what we were hoping for/expecting.

M has decided to look on the bright side. I am trying to do the same, but to be completely honest, I am feeling a little scared and sad. I don't really want to play this game again, but I guess it's what us subfertiles must do.

Well . . .

23 comments:

Ms. J said...

oh honey, I know its hard to have a glass half-full attitude when you have survived through what you have, so many times before.

Sending up prayers for you to have strength and courage and perservere.

HUGS.

Joy (When Does Daddy Come Home?!) said...

From my own research dates can be off by 1-2 weeks, even this early, and it's fine. Implantation can take anywhere from 1-2 weeks post ovulation so it could just be a late implantation, which would mean you're measuring just fine!

My first two girlies measured off. Abigail measurements were 2 weeks off! Keep that chin up and hold on to your husband's positivity. Praying for you!!!

Geohde said...

I remember I had that sense of not right with my first pregnancy and I turned out to be correct, although in an unexpected way.

If it helps, gestational sac estimates are less accurate, so it may be pure luck THAT measures bang on and the baby not.

120 is about right for a 7 week-er, too. HR peaks at about 9 weeks at 175 with a range of about 20bpm.

Early pregnancy is scary for you, I hope this works out,

xx

g

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Julie, Todd and Kate said...

I'm glad that you were able to see your little bean, and that it had a good heartbeat.

I'll be thinking of you and hoping that everything continues to go ok. I think your positive attitude can only help!

Ashley said...

Wow, what a horrible comment from anonymous. Some people should just not comment. Katie, you have every right to try, and I'm really hoping that you have a healthy little one in there! *prayers!*
And to anonymous: When you fall off of your bike, however many times that may be, you get back on. And if you never learn to ride, then at least you know you tried. It's sad to me that you feel the need to bash on someone as sweet as Katie.

Rachel said...

I really hope this little bean sticks around and has a little growth spurt in the next couple of days. I know it must be hard to hold onto hope after what you've been through, but I agree with Ms. Geohde that measurements can be off by quite a bit at this point. We'll be thinking of you as you wait it out.

Patricia said...

I hope and pray everything goes good with the baby and you Katie and don't worry about anonymous because they must have a horrible life to take it out on you.

Hugs,
Meemaw

manapan said...

Oh Katie. I know it's hard to try to stay positive after all you've had to endure. We're hoping for nothing but the best for you and your family. ((hugs))

Ms. J said...

Oh by the way, hey ANONYMOUS?! Yeah, go phuck yourself. Yeah, I am calling YOU out, Ms. Hateful. Take your crap elsewhere, I can track IP codes and numbers, so don't think you are hiding behind that cowardly "Anonymous" tag - I think it says a lot about you. And don't you DARE question anybody's reasons for expanding their family.

You keep on hanging on, Katie. We got your back.

Roadblocks and Roller Coasters said...

Hey sweetie, I'm definitely thinking of you and praying for you. Early pregnancy is so scary and any thing that isn't just right can make you crazy. Just a thought...didn't you test early and get a negative then test later and come up positive? If so, then it is possible you've got a late implantation situation, right?

Thinking of you either way and praying for the best.

Also to the anonymous commenter, you've got a lot of nerve. I'll save my explitive laden response to your stupidity and insensitivity since you're not worth the breath I'd have to use to share it with you.

((HUGS)) Katie.

cheryllookingforward said...

Sending you some love and prayers.

Anonymous said...

Katie, my prayers are with you for your strength, and for your sweet baby.

For you anon.: keep your hateful comments to yourself. Don't read the blog if you have such strong emotions.

Liz in GA

Stacy Woodruff said...

My boy measured a week behind at that stage, and he caught up just fine. And I had an IUI and ovulated with the help of ovi.drel & folli.stim so I know exactly what my dates were. ;) Every baby is different, and develops at their own speed. (And that holds true well into adulthood, from what I've observed!) Remember - PUPO!

Studentrntiffany said...

Sending you love and luck!

J said...

Damn I missed the anonymous comment....sounds like she is real special. Eff her.
Anyway, yay for a heartbeat! Try to stay positive. At my first u/s I measured almost a week behind, but then the next time we went in , it was like she caught up. :)

Nurse Lochia said...

Sending lots of prayers and positive thoughts your way.

Anonymous said...

On the bright side. fertilization can take up to 4 days. so if you fertilized four days after you ovulated, you really are not that behind.

Red said...

I'm sure it is hard to look on the bright side, but since pregnancy is such a great unkown until you get your little one is your arms safely no news is good enough to totally reassure.

It all sounds good so far and I just hope it all continues to be good for another 8 months or so. There are enough positive stories out there to fuel you. Just don't go to Dr Google too often!

Kathy said...

(((HUGS))) I am encouraged by your seeing a heartbeat. I totally understand your concerns with the baby measuring on the smaller side, but there are ranges for a reason. Hang in there. I am hoping and praying for the best for you and your family.

Secret Sloper said...

I hope and pray that everything is fine for you and your little one.

Polka Dot said...

I'm going to look on the bright side for you. I know how hard it is to do it on your own, so I'll happily shoulder some of the weight.

*hugs*

Me said...

Wow. Pregnant again?!? Someone on my blog made a comment that you had had a mean Anon comment (don't you hate that?) and since I hadn't stopped over in a while (*blush*) I decided to pop in and see how you are doing. And surprise, surprise! I guess congrats are in order. And best wishes. Sincerely.