Saturday, August 15, 2009

T Minus 7 Days

Will is turning a year old on Thurday. Yeah. I know. I can't believe it, either.

I feel a sense of denial, surreality, excitement, and nostalgia about the whole thing. I keep remembering this time last year, when I was feeling pretty much the same things, just in a different way. I was definitely in denial, as it will never seem real that a baby can possibly be coming out of your body until it does. It was definitely surreal, as I couldn't believe that I was about to have my very own RLB. Excitement goes without saying. There was some nostalgia, a tiny twinge as I thought about changing from a duo to a trio, as I realized that it was the last time for just M and me to be a twosome, together.

So, now, present day. I can't believe my baby is turning one. I am excited to experience all of the wonderful growth and changes the next year will bring. But I am also finding myself unexpectedly very sad and prone to weeping over silly things.

I have also been doing a good job not getting all crazy stressed about his party. But as the days dwindle, I am finding myself starting to get worked up. I am nervous that he won't nap that morning (he is transitioning from two to one nap and each day is a guessing game) and be tired and grumpy by showtime. I am a little edgy that our families will all be together for the first time since our wedding, six plus years ago (and there is a reason we don't get them together very often). I am fussy about the house, because it's just not clean enough for guests and I don't know when I am going to find the time to clean it. Also, since my parents and their three dogs are going to be staying with us for a few days, it honestly feels like a waste of time to spend too much time cleaning it. No one else should be at our house but them and perhaps my in-laws.

The party is at a nearby park. It's supposed to be 80 degrees and sunny that day. That's good news, except the park will be really crowded and parking is limited, so I find myself nervous about people finding enough room to park. I worry that there won't be enough food, or too much food, or that people won't like the food! LOL!

I am trying to keep a calm head about all of this. I know it's just a kid's birthday party and that he won't remember anything and no one else will care. But I will remember it and I care, so I do want it to be a nice party.

I will gladly accept any and all party advice as we head into the last seven days of planning and stressing!

2 comments:

Jen said...

I really can't believe it has been a year already. I can't wait to hear all about his party!

Fertilized said...

WOW - a year! It's amazing at how fast the time goes by. My advice - Only worry about the things you can control - You can not control the naps )if he is not tired), parking, the weather, the arrival time of guests, family members, etc. Do not apologize for anything you can not control .. let it go! ( easier said than practiced)

This day is about Will, You and your Hub - No one esle. You just make sure that Will is able to have a good time because everyone else can make their own good time. And if Will has a good time, You and Hub will and of course guests that allow themselves to have a good time also will.

I say have a glass (or bottle) of wine to ease into the whole day and go from there.

I left Hub with MT to do naps and such while I was at the park decorating and socializing with guests until Hub and MT arrived. You can decide which you would rather do and see if splitting up the tasks of decorating/setting up and Getting Him ready. Pick the one that would make you more relaxed