Here I Am

Where to begin?

Probably an apology would be best: I am sorry for stepping away for a bit and worrying quite a few of my bloggy friends. Thanks for the comments, e-mails, Face.book check ins, and even phone calls wondering if we are okay. It means a lot to me to know that you care. So a sincere thank you from the bottom of my heart is also in order.

Bottom line is that yes, we are okay.

But there have been a few things going on and, honestly, we are not doing great.

First and foremost: Will is fine. However, he never really recovered from his virus of a couple weeks ago and another trip to the doctor revealed double ear infections, sinusitis, and possibly pneumonia (we are still waiting for the radiologist to formally review the x-rays). Two and a half weeks with a very sick baby have not been fun. Fortunately, I have not gotten any of the creeping crud, I just feel pretty run down after many nights of little to no sleep and constant nursing. It has literally been a return to the newborn days. I wish that I could say that he was feeling better, but not yet. Hopefully, soon. Poor Little Man.

Also, I haven't been able to write about (and still really can't) the other thing that has been troubling me. M and I just aren't getting along very well lately. In what I consider a rather ironic twist, now that we have Will and the drama of conception and sustaining a pregnancy are in the past, it seems as if our relationship is faltering. I know that many new parents face this, but there is a lot more to it than I can write about here, for the privacy of my marriage and my husband. Suffice to say that things aren't going well and it honestly breaks my heart.

Add to that the regular blah blah blah of life, and it's just been a rough few weeks. But I have been reading (if not commenting) when I have had a few free moments. There have been some wonderful things going on in the community lately and I am so glad for all of the miracles that are out there.