My heart aches for you and I am so sorry for your loss*.
I remember the pain and hurt of my first miscarriage as if it happened yesterday. I did not go to the ER, because the doctor on call told me that there was nothing that they could do for me. I remember sobbing on my husband's lap, knowing in my heart of hearts that it was over, and yet that same heart did not want to let go.
I encourage you to find a way to memorialize this baby that you have lost. It was the best way for me to start to emotionally recover. I treasure the things in my "miscarriage basket" and go through them from time to time. I do want to look forward, but I never want to forget. Our little angels have made me who I am.
Again, I am so sorry and I wish you peace, healing, and comfort in the days and weeks ahead. E-mail me if there is anything else that I can do.
*Nicole left me a comment for the last post and had a miscarriage at 6 weeks, 2 days.